Hitting up the holidays fully in solo travel mode has amplified the deafening silence during the last few weeks, more so addressed the elephant in the room: that I am (in more ways than one) on my own now and that I need to come to terms with this fact sooner than later. I have been trying to cope and I'm slowly getting there, I supposed. Overall, things are evidently harder now compared to how they were the last 2 years. Missing the company of good people throughout the Erasmus days, is all I wanted to say.
The art of adapting is always hard to master despite my rich portfolio and long track record of frequent moving-outs and changing addresses. In fact, I made at least 5 moves in the last 5 years, from the Philippines, to Tartu, Riga, Lyon, and now in Antwerp. It always take a lot of patience and determination to be constantly and consistently motivated amidst the compounding effects of various factors from the weather to the language. Then I have now this impending disaster posed by the phd challenge itself.
Citing everything mentioned above, I guess I have the perfect excuse to envy these Düsseldorf plane trees; it's just amazing how they easily and effortlessly adapts through changing seasons, in full style.
If anything, this whole movibg-out-slash-starting-anew situation has further reaffirmed my independence proving that I could indeed function, decide, and stand-by & accept the consequences of my choices. I guess being pulled out of that two-year old comfort zone is sad but is also freeing in some ways. So, cheers to moving forward! I wish we all achieve that tabula rasa of sorts that most of us aspire this new year!
